Saturday, December 02, 2006

When it pains so much!!!

I fell down, got a wound on my knee, deeep large cut. The blood oozing out made me realize the pain, made me feel i needed to get it dressed up from a doctor. I went to the Doc who cleaned all the dust with cotton soaked with water and then aplied antiseptic lotion which made me cry loudly, though the cries were mute, m not supposed to cry out loud coz i've grown up, m not a kid. The Doc dressed up my wound n told me that i can get it dressed at home by anybody, its not a major cut n well it wasnt, nothing is a major cut. nothing pains until we let it to i guess. Came back home n kept cribbing about my pain causing voilence against all the ears who were not interested... Bad i guess, but could not help it... Next day i had to redress it. I slowly started to remove the bandage rolling it at the same time, feeling gross at the dry blood. Then i came to the last bit, the cotton had stuck to my wound n the momemt i started to peel it off it started paining, hurting like hell, i kept on removing it slowly till the time it became unbearable for me to bear that slow pain which was soaking my tears n i was wasting them n i decided to snap out of it. i held that peice of dressing from one end, closed my eyes, clenchd the other fist and pulled it hard, pulling some skin out with it, i let the blood ooze out, the pus accumulate on the periphery of the wound, so that i could clear the mess with some antiseptic and redress it. The wound should not stay, even if the scar does... The pain had to precipitate so that i could gather it and throw it with the discarded bandage. It hurts n it did but the wound has started to heal....

11 comments:

adi said...

hmmmm
thanks, but i fear it'll all get me down for long...

Aditi said...

its a well written metaphor i am imagining...u're right wounds heal even if the scars stay.. sometimes though u cant just sit backa and wait for it to heal u have to yank off the cotton lest it fester underneath..
well written

Anonymous said...

just imagining the whole thing made me cringe...

i wonder where the wound really was...

Prashant said...

ouchhhhhhhh
This post remind me of some old time wounds.....that i got due to accidents from bicycle...
memories are still fresh in my mind....even the scenes too...

nihar said...

WOUNDS,PAIN,SCARS ALL ARE WORDS OF SUFFERINGS, OUCH DI, U REMIND ME OF MY PAST WHICH I DONT WANT TO BE REMEMBERED.
WOUNDS ARE DESTINED TO BE HEELED N SCARS ARE LEFT TO REMIND US THERE WAS A WOUND HERE SOMETIME BACK.
BEST IS TO IGNORE IT,
KAB TAK YAAD RAHEGA YEH DARD,EK NA EK DIN TO SHOOOO HO HI JAYEGA.
MISS U DI,

nihar said...

JANE KAHA SE YEH DARD AYA,
HUMNE NA CHAHA THA PHIR BHI CHALA AYA,
JANE KIS KONE MEIN YEH CHIP KAR BAIHA HAI,
THODI THODI DER MEIN JAGTA HAI,AUR THODI THODI DER MEIN HAME RULATA.

Anonymous said...

Very well written.
You reminded me of my schools days uff ufff I got really stinky wounds on my knees...Wounds healed but still have scars :(

Stay Beautiful...!!

deepti said...

adi: it wont...trust me.
aditi: u r absolutely right, one has to prevent it frm festering underneath
Mirage: yeah u hav been thinking right bt d point is to be able to snap out of it.
Prashant: well the wounds did heal rt?
Nihar: i miss u too, n well this posy was for a friend who is very dear to my heart.
Sugar lips: Wel the scars remain to say that pain never lasts. n yes I really like the way u say stay beautiful...i love it.

Prashant said...
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Prashant said...

Yes, wounds heal with the time..

But i dont wanna forget those memories of wounds because with those memories are linked the memories of various things like a mother taking care of his child when he is on bed and crying and father taking his kid to doctor , a brother going to school along with the leave applicatioj of his brother and sisters taking care of their lovely brother....

these are worth remembering memories and i am not so selfish that just because i was in pain so that i should not recall all those....

I just love that time and wanna go back for sometime again to hurt myself........

I AM FULLY NOSTALGIC at teh moment now......

:-(

Anonymous said...

what a coincidence,,,how well this post describes my condition..

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